Hey all you beautiful souls…I want to start by saying Happy late Father’s Day to all the dads, stepdads, and moms who play both roles! This morning, I woke up and decided I needed to share some more of my life with you guys. Going off of what I posted last week…still unemployed, divorced and losing my mind. Job searching at this point has come to feel like a whole job in itself. I apply everyday to different jobs and if I don’t have a college degree or speak Spanish, apparently I’m not qualified. And yet there are multiple companies having to shut down because they have no employees. I’m seriously considering starting an Only Fans to get by! All of these females are making serious bank by posting pictures and if I had a good amount of self confidence, I probably could get behind that idea! I’m not giving up though. I’m going to keep trying and pray the right thing will come along. I know God has a plan for me, I just have to wait for him to show me what’s next on my journey.

On to the divorce thing, that’s a whole other topic in itself that I will get into, it’s just going to have to be in different posts, but being an almost 30 year old trying to date in today’s world is absolutely ridiculous. Being a single mother of 3 and having a hit or miss when it comes to your ex husband actually getting his kids when he’s supposed to, is a hard thing to overcome as far as having any sort of social life! Time to face the facts.. I have no social life, which leaves me to online dating and OH BOY! That’s an interesting world of people! I’ve been on different dating sites. I’m not going to lie, I’ve tried several of the popular ones and yet, here I am. And for those of you wondering, I’ve been on Facebook dating, Tinder, Bumble, Plenty of Fish, and Match and none of them have brought me any closer to meeting a decent man. For you ladies, Bumble is a sight where we are supposed to make the first move (I guess for the men who have seem to lost their balls somewhere in life and have no gumption to talk to a woman first), but let me just say that even with me making the first move, men still don’t know how to respond with more than one word. That is definitely one of the biggest issues with online dating! Men now a days can’t seem to hold an actual conversation with women and if that’s not the case, they’ll start off with the casuals, “How are you?”, “Hey beautiful..” and so on and once you think things may go well, they hit you with the sex talk! Like sir, I just started talking to you I definitely am not interested in letting you in my pants! I found one guy…talked to him for a month. Everyday we would talk on the phone, multiple times a day, text and snapchat. He asked me on a date. I agreed and we made plans. The next day he completely ghosted me. Blocked me on everything, ghosted me…I guess his wife found out about me?! Totally kidding! I don’t know what happened, but I do know it sucked. I opened up to this man, put myself out there, took the time to get to know him and when I think thing are going well..BAM! Haha Samantha, I don’t think so! So, I’ve stopped trying. I cancelled all my subscriptions to the dating apps and I’m playing it by ear. Whatever happens, happens at this point. I’m too old for the games and drama.

Sooo summer time…whoooo!!! Summer time, I feel like is the most stressful for all parents. Stay at home ones and working ones. You have to worry about paying for childcare if you work and if you’re a stay at home parent, you lose your shit on the daily and we can probably find you locked in the bathroom at some point during the day, crying or drinking wine from the bottle because at this point you don’t even know if you have anymore clean cups from the dishes that are piled in the sink after you just did them 10 minutes ago! And laundry…don’t even get me started on laundry! Does anyone else’s kids think they have to change every hour of the day or is it just mine? Just when I think I’m caught up on laundry, I walk into my kids bathroom or closet and realize I will NEVER actually be caught up on laundry! I would love to say taking them to do things is a great way to run their energy out and get them out of the house, but have you met Texas weather?! It’s supposed to rain all week! Like what?! And even when we have nice weather to do stuff, you don’t actually want to take them anywhere because that requires actual pants and most of the time the little heathens don’t listen and you can’t spank them in public because that’s consider child abuse now a days…this world is a mess right along with my life most of the time, but I love those kids so much it hurts my heart!

Maybe one of these days, I’ll get my shit together because let’s face it…my life is a mess.

Hey all you beautiful souls…I’m Samantha. I’m a 29 year old, single, divorced, unemployed mother of 3. I’m starting this blog to tell my stories of everyday life and stories of my past that have helped shape the woman I am today. I want to be real and open with my readers. A lot of times, on social media and different platforms on the internet, people often put on a “show” to make it seem like they’re doing great in life and everything is happy go lucky and while this may be so true for some people, for others it’s a distraction from the ridiculousness of everyday life. For the last 9 years, that was my truth. A post here and there on Facebook, Instagram, and Snapchat to make it seem like everything was okay in my marriage, my life, motherhood, but it wasn’t. I want to be real with everyone. I want to show anyone that may be struggling with anything in life, that it’s okay. Everyone struggles with something and maybe, just maybe part of my life can help you do better or be better in yours. I’m going to do my best to post everyday. I will be leaving comments open and I want to be able to have open discussions on things that I post. I want women and men to feel safe and comfortable to open up and say what they need, share their experiences, ask for help or advice in a safe space with no judgement. I want to share my journey not only for my own mental stability, but for others to know they’re not alone because let’s face it…life is HARD!